So...about this...

Earlier on the date of the 17th of May, I had this personal feeling of being uninspired, underappreciated, overlooked, unheard, not even just as an artist, but as a person. As a person, I have rarely ever had people who truly took into account what I say to them. It is why in real life, I have such a blunt, assholish kind of demeanor when I talk. If I didn't not a single person would listen to me or take anything I say into account.

People always say "anytime you feel like making music, always consider why you made music in the first place and that will keep you going". The kicker is that I have always wanted to make music simply to be a voice. I wanted to be one of many who used music as a way to reason, inform or communicate to people. But making music in a way that is conscious in nature rarely gets people's attention, especially if any genre that adopts the conscious tag usually approaches it in a shamefully vanilla fashion.

Anyway, after not having a whole lot of people to talk deep concepts with, failing opportunities to get a paying job for about a year, and occasionally fluctuating mental states that I haven't told anyone about (or I have, but nobody responded or even tried to take it into account), I came up with songs that communicate isolation, depression, and memories of what going through that shit was even like.

I swore to myself that I would never stoop to writing about sad feelings. Trust when I say that you hear a lot of artists tackling that already in ways that are as sincere as it is silly and bandwagony. Or if I do, see to it that nobody but me hears it. Because...who cares, right?

Anyway, after my little expression of resignation, I decided it may be a good time to go ahead and give to you guys my collection of songs written from the heart. PLEASE excuse the fact that my voice sounds so shaky. I have recently found ways to better my singing skills, but the point is that I wrote all of these songs at my lowest...when I could care less about who heard me and how.

I do not have lyrics unfortunately, but I hope that the little that you do hear either helps you, makes you feel like you were connected with or that you got a fairly bloody glimpse into my emotions. Not to mention, it would be a pretty damn good entry for Mental Health Awareness Month.

Either way, here is Straight Face Emoji: Maintenance Man 2, an album constructed over periods of time accidentally, like the original. ;-)